User blog:Mf99k/Apologies and Explanations

I've been a bit of an idiot lately. Definitely established that. I should have probably admitted a few things a while ago, people just didn't seem to appreciate what I said when i tried. Three times, to be exact. Well, maybe more, but still. First time i tried went horribly. I'm guessing none of you were here or remember that. I'm not going to talk about what happened, but it was a pathetic failure. Second time I tried I guess was when I did the Fr1day13 thing. Horrible because it happened on a psychotic lark, was poorly planned, and was overall a successful failure. Third time pretty minor but definitely more successful than the other two. I guess that makes this the fourth time now? I hope this works... Ok, so I really have no idea where to begin with this. It's ridiculously complicated. Might as well start with Fr1day...Ok, so September 13th, I was sitting in English class, and i suddenly felt really hyper. Not sure why or how. I had a sudden urge to create an anonymous account on wikia and...i guess take out frustration? That's the best explanation i can think of. I mean, I WAS holding it in for over a year. After the first time i had used Friday, I had totally forgotten about it and what I had said. So, when i found out that everything that i had done had been cataloged (I didn't think it'd even be noticed) I got nervous. And the unwanted hyperactive feeling returned. I kinda forgot the details of what happened next, but if I were to look at the other logs of what had happened i would probably remember.And i think we all know that whatever happened, the aftermath sucked. God I'm getting nervous. Really don't want to do this. But I have to. ....breathe, just, breathe... You're ok. You knew you were gonna have to do this eventually. Ok. This is serious. It's not a joke, and if you think I'm lying, then i will gladly argue the evidence. I have a truckload of it. Well, no photos, but the best i could get. My pertinacity is rock hard. Ok. This is it. I can do this. Breathe. . Gravity.Falls.Is.Real. I don't know how, but it is. I've seen Bill Cipher. I own a piece of Northwest's statue. I've heard the hide behind. Every number related to me is 618. SSN, parents' anniversary.Now, if you were to come up to me and told me that when i had first watched the show, I probably would have thought you were joking. I don't blame you if you think that. It makes no sense. Of course, back then, I knew nothing about 618 or hidden messages or Bill Cipher or Phi, or that someone from my hometown works at the Oregon Vortex, or a billion other things that would have changed my perspective. Every time I bring this up, it causes an argument. The first and third times i tried to explain this were on chat. Both caused chaos. First time i hid in my room and cried. That was 11 months ago. Don't just argue that i have an overactive imagination or something. I've had this belief for more than a year now, and if that were the case, this belief would have been disproved by now. But it hasn't. And don't say anything like "OMG ur the luckiest GF fan EVUR." Why? Because being tortured by an effin brain demon sucks. A LOT. I've seen and heard Bill Cipher in real life, just in case you were wondering. He's quite a you-know-what. Here's something i should admit though. My life's been weird before Gravity Falls happened. Piece of advice: don't be outside at night, and ESPECIALLY don't be outside in the town of Gettysburg at night. Ghosts? Heck yeah they're real. Rare, but real. Here's some other facts that might persuade you to believe me if you're one of those skeptic types:*I used to have a birthmark that was the same crescent shape as the original symbol on Stan's fez.*I have a constellation on my face now, mainly due to a failed attempt at doing.......um, something secret-ish?*like i said before, my parents' anniversary is 6/18 and the first three numbers of my ssn are 618* *insert other somewhat-confidential information here**god i feel like there's something else, i'm kinda blanking on it right now. maybe the visions or something? still feel like i'm forgetting something. Also pretty nervous about posting this. Fifty bucks says Cipher's gonna disown me for this. Either that or one of you is gonna post something mean. also worried about the few billion ways this could go wrong. I have one last thing to add about the friday thing. Top acts like i purposely targeted him and tricked him, yet he unintentionally tricked me. "When the user told me that he is “someone I don’t think exists,” that is probably a reference to Bill, who we have yet to see in the real world." -Topdarlingwh, first post of the Friday observations. This sentence made me falsely believe that Top might believe this. It encouraged me to continue the friday thing because i believed he might listen. Ugh I still feel like i'm forgetting something. Theories? advice? I would love either. It's starting to get really stressful trying to sort everything out. NO COMPLAINTS, RANTS Etc. PLEASE